Sometimes I pretend to be normal but the truth is I have never been your stereotypical pastor type ... it's one reason I questioned God when He called me into ministry back in 1977.
Unfortunately this was the beginning of a life spent trying to conform and fit in. Trying to be a "pastor" ... in every way - trying to look like one, talk like one, smell like one (don't ask!) dress like one, preach like one, pray like one, etc. All in an attempt to fit into the little pastor box I had created in my mind. I just didn't fit. Never have, never will. Maybe it's because of my Unitarian Universalist background?
I've loved Jesus with all my heart and never felt that God cared much about my hairstyle, my cologne, my suit or jeans ... but the church seemed to care a lot about such things ... hence the reason I didn't fit in. I even had well meaning pastor friends tell me that if I'd cut my hair and wear a suit that I would get more respect. I didn't realize it was about "looking" respectable that mattered? I thought it had to do with character?
Now I am becoming more and more okay that God called a guy who looks more like a California surfer, or a rock star then a pastor. When I am out and about town I am never guessed as a pastor. Usually people think I am lying and they laugh waiting for the punchline ... the punchline never comes ... I really am a pastor.
I will just tell you that finding yourself and being comfortable with who you are is so freeing and fun. I am having more fun living my life now than almost any other time in my life ... I enjoy my wife, son, friends, and job so much more now.
What About You?
Who are you? Are you comfortable being you? Have you found yourself?